Fitting in.

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by serenitydiscord
Monday, March 15, 2010

I think this is a wonderful website, and it's great to be able to see and read about people that are facing similar obstacles.

In some ways, however, I feel as though I'm a bit different. I see people writing about feeling like they don't fit in, while I seem to have the opposite problem. I've always had to work a lot harder than others to keep up in school, and socialize with people. I work very hard at this and think I've been successful. Maybe too successful. Sometimes I even forget that I'm not like most people in certain ways. I think that my friends forget this too, which is hard -- because most of them know, but probably forget because I'm so good at making it seem like nothing's wrong. When the truth is I'm trying twice as hard just to compensate.

I don't know if there's any way to resolve this when it can sometimes be a problem. Or if I should be doing something differently, paying more attention to the symptoms of VCFS that I have. I went through college and most of high school without any kind of support program for people like me. This of course made everything much harder, and might not have been the right decision, but it's what I wanted at the time. To be normal.

I still do, but I think that maybe I try too hard when I shouldn't really need to. I wonder if anyone else around my age (or not) face this problem as well. None of my friends have anything like VCFS, which is why I'm excited to have found this site and be meeting others like me. I think it's a good thing.