The Circle window

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by Circlewindow
Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I thought that I would write for those of you who are interested. I am a 27 year old male who has been diagnosed with having Dyslexia.  Hopefully for those of you out there reading somehow someway it will give you all courage to face the trials and tribulations of living with a learning disability. For relatives and friends of someone who has a learning disability hopefully this will give you an insight.


You stand at the window, the square window and you tell yourself "this is the right window for me". Everyone else is standing here looking through this window, so why shouldn't I be here?  Deep down you know that this is not the right window but you don't want them to know that. So, you pretend.  You chuckle when the group laughs, you smile when the others smile. You know that it's an act but you hope the others don't realize it. You tell yourself maybe; just maybe this is how it is meant to be.  The square window to you is somewhat opaque; sure you can make out the vague shape of the grass, the trees and other prominent land marks. Then someone in the group comments on the dog, the bird or some other object. So you pretend, agreeing with the rest of the group that you can see what they are talking about. Who are you trying to kid? You know that you can't see those objects- you know that and somehow the others there know that too.  You just go on pretending; growing ever so more tired and worried. Maybe after all, the square window is not the right window for you. How could that be? You look around everyone else is here. Yes, this has to be the right window.


The one day someone comes along and taps you on the shoulder. "Excuse me, I am terribly sorry but you seem to be looking through the wrong window". At first you react like being told you have taken the wrong seat on an aircraft. There is a sense of disbelief. After a while, when the initial reaction  is overcome you decide that maybe that square window that you struggled to look through for so long - is actually not the right window for you.  So you follow that person who tapped you on the shoulder. Then they lead you to the circle window.


The circle window? No, this is definitely not the right window and then you look through it. Everything seems to be so much clearer. You can see out that window you can see the objects those people standing at the square window talked about. You just had to see it from a different angle. You feel a sense of relief, a weight lifted off your shoulders. There are people at the square window perplexed, that you have to stand and look through a different window to see the same things that they do.  They will never understand that this window, the circle window is actually the right window for you.  Then you look around, there are others standing looking through the circle window and people all around viewing the world through different windows. Some of these people who stand there have changed the world. Influenced others and whose name now marks the pages of history books.  The world you realize can be shaped by people who see things in a different angle and a different light. You don't worry about those others there at the square window. Your happy here.