Facts of Life

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by IrishGrl4eva87
Wednesday, June 03, 2009

It's so strange to go through your life without really anyone understanding how difficult your past has been. So many people have told me when I'm going through hard times, "Just move on, get over it, it'll pass." I feel like that's all I've been doing my whole life. Getting through hard times in school dealing with a learning disability and having people call you slow or knowing yourself that you are slow compared to everyone else. Countless trips to the doctors that you dread going to because of past experiences that catch up with you. Trying to understand why you can't do things like other people can. Broken hearts are just as difficult to mend back together.

When you think about it, I think people that have learning disabilities or other physiological problems are so much easier to love and care for than a "normal" person. We try and work soooo hard on the things we want the most and we are very persistant until we get it. The recent heartache that I have gone through has been the most difficult to get through. When  you find someone to care about, you long for that one person to accept you for who you are, not what they percieve you as before they get to know you. I feel like sometimes as though I wonder why won't people give you even the slightest chance to show your true self.

People don't even realize what they're taking advantage of until they realized they hurt that someone (my ex). Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be happy. Whenever I feel like I actually am, someone or something takes it away and I'm back at square one. I feel like one of those math problems where they talk about a boy trying to get out of a well but he keeps slipping, how many times does he have to keep rising until he gets out of the well? It's another thing to work for, another thing to get through. Maybe that's one of the facts of life we all have to live with. Do we ever find true satisfaction or true happiness with ourselves?